Lost

It feels like I've lost many things

Emotions and feelings and thoughts I had seen forever

Who I used to be

Who I grew up

That person doesn’t seem to exist anymore

Anger and sadness

Crying and being depressed

Having no hope

Being misunderstood

Being unable to say

It feels like in a few years I've lost so much

Some might say good reddens

Others might not understand

But it feels like an old and bad friend had just left me

And even thought he was no good

His going away still left a hole in my heart

I came to understand

That there are no bad or good thoughts or feelings

There are just stories, things we tell to ourselves and others

About ourselves

Happy isn’t better than sad, just different

Cant to afraid isn’t different that can and I'm going to

It's just a story I tell

I can or I can't

I will or I wont

I laugh or I cry

All is an important part of me

Things that I can't be without

It's ok to be scared and run away

It's ok to wander lost and confused

It's ok to cry and be selfish

It's ok to be a Borden on others

It's aloud to ask and accept help

And if I choose I can be happy

It's really is all quite that simple

You just choose to let it all go away

Or you choose to overcome it

And then you feel it again

The happiness that seems to run away from you so long ago.