WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I BREAK

Oh Lord...

I came with an open heart,

Nothing left to hide.

I gave you all my sunshine,

While I slowly died inside.

I wanted to be your shelter,

Your safe place in the storm.

I held you through your nightmares,

Tried to keep your spirit warm.

You said this love was too good to be true,

Like happiness was something you couldn't trust.

I kept on saying, "Baby, I'm here for you",

While our beautiful dreams turned to dust.

I fought your ghosts, I held your tears,

I swallowed every doubt and fear.

But tell me, baby, can't you see?

Who's fighting for the man in me?

WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I BREAK?!

WHO SAVES ME WHEN I FALL?!

I gave you all my heart, girl,

But you couldn't hear me call!

I tried to chase your demons,

I tried to ease your pain,

But I was drowning in your ocean,

Screaming underneath the rain!

OH, I LOVED YOU, BABY!

GOD KNOWS I TRIED!

BUT I CAN'T KEEP LOSING MYSELF

JUST TO KEEP YOU BY MY SIDE!

Another promise, another goodbye,

Another lonely tear I had to hide.

I dreamed of Sundays, a home, a family,

A love that felt like setting me free.

That morning I was waiting,

With a thousand dreams in sight.

Another cancelled day together,

Another piece of me died that night.

I wrote my heart upon those pages,

Every wound, every scar.

You said my words were much too long,

But you never saw how deep they are.

I'm tired, Lord, I'm so damn tired!

Of being strong while I'm breaking inside.

I wanted someone to hold me close,

Not another war I had to survive.

I didn't need perfection,

I never asked you to be whole.

I just needed you to see me,

To love the man behind the soul.

WHO HOLDS ME WHEN I BREAK?!

WHO PICKS ME OFF THE GROUND?!

I've been screaming into heaven,

But there's no one making a sound!

I GAVE YOU EVERY HEARTBEAT!

EVERY DREAM I EVER KNEW!

BUT SOMEWHERE IN THE DARKNESS,

I LOST THE MAN I WAS TO YOU!

OH, I'M STILL HERE, BABY!

I'M STILL ALIVE!

I'M DONE WITH DYING SLOWLY

JUST TO KEEP THIS LOVE ALIVE!

I CHOSE MYSELF!

I CHOSE MY SOUL!

I WON'T KEEP BREAKING

JUST TO MAKE SOMEBODY WHOLE!

Maybe I'll miss you tomorrow,

Maybe I'll cry tonight.

But I'd rather face the darkness

Than keep losing my own light.

I wanted to be your forever...

But I won't throw myself away.

I'M STILL HERE!

I'M STILL ALIVE!

OH, LORD... I'M STILL ALIVE!