The Last Moments of Gabriel
Abandoned in a world of confusion
I dare not open my eyes.
With every breath – crawls the pain,
eating me alive.
Hatred consumes me.
The helpless notion of life slipping away.
Counting the days of the rest of my life,
knowing the dark shadows await.
I was neither an angel, nor a sinner had I become.
Plain life, astonishing mind,
curiosity that killed the cat.
Too many questions that were left without an answer.
Now I am paying the price by feeding my cancer.
The last of my moments I spent in a room.
My eyes are shut, but the pain is no more.
Only the stream of drugs maintains my broken being.
I fear my death, but time has run out,
The dark shadows take over the night.
I feel the warmth of the living,
As I fall into the last place I would be.
I rest with no peace.
Darkness is my friend.
All that I love are shedding a tear,
whispering words I cannot hear.
Cold dirt is covering my face.
The sound of insects invaded my ears.
I am left alone, lying in the earth –
"even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death".